Yan · 的空盒子

人海茫茫中

与你相遇
是我有史以来的幸福

在生命里的交叉点
我一再与你重逢

虽然之间跌跌撞撞
不断的互相伤害

你对我的坚决
我对你的思念

从此认定了生命中的另一半

我不知道 我们能不能携手到老
我不能却定 我们能否走到最后

可是 我想说
就算有那么一天 缘分不再把我们牵着

你 还是我生命中曾经拥有的幸福
你给我的回忆 永远都是那么珍贵

wonder since when i stop blogging.. yea. that's how busy am i..
actually i wanted to blog since last week, but stupid comp got no chinese.
argh.! damn boring using comp nowadays..
after reformating. got no music, no pictures, no nothing.
wana listen to songs but super lazy to download. plus damn slow the thingy.
waiting for someone to send me. somehow seems like no one is there -.-

stupid LAN final test tomorrow
waste my time and energy only.
dont know for what i study all those history stuff. so darn lots.
if it's not compulsory to pass i wouldn't even touch any of all. =(

Life is fading without music   

逐渐适应了学院生活……
认识久了 其实我班同学 大家人都很好 很亲切 很容易相处
其中一个突破就是…… 以前跟同班同学都只是黏着一两个好朋友 其他同学跟不认识没两样……
但现在的同学 大家似乎都能平起平坐……

有好有坏啦……
好的是…… 不管谁大家都能混一混
坏的是…… 没有一两位最好的知己 真的可以彼此聊心

所以…… 我还是很怀念我中学时的好姐妹~~
才知道 要找到一份真心的友谊 有多难……
一份真心的友谊 又是要多久的时间经营……

虽然最近我们在一起的时间 越来越少……
聊天的时间 也越来越少……
有人说…… 我们的友谊再过几时 就会暗地消失……
回想着当时…… 我们一起说好的约定……
不管上了大学 不管各自远走
我们的友情永远都保持着这份热情……

虽然大家都还记得这份约定……
但…… 其实大家心中该早已有了种莫名的预感……
这莫名的预感…… 在暗地里 慢慢的滋长……
预告着 我们的友谊将面临危机……

至少……
我们还是有尽力维护这份友谊的念头……
所以……
我相信 最真心的朋友 不管多久没谈心 最真挚的友情 无论多久没碰面……
一旦再见面……
还是能不由自主地敞开心怀 诉说着当年……

we never had a nice talk these few nights.
arguments never stopped between us.
perhaps, like what u said,
i was the reason for all these to happen?

thought of we could talk better tonight.
cause we never had chatted for few days,
i had tons of things wanted to tell so much.
cause i was so exhauted for my revisions,
i just wanted to spend a little of your time,
a little of sweet talks, to boost a little of my energy.

ending up. you were busy enjoying with your Lovely friends.

till late night. listen, it's LATE night AGAIN.

thing that i hardly could accept.

wetting playing enjoying whole day long.
ALWAYS.

cant he spend more of his time doing more useful things?
not it is holidays or what, i thought tests are coming soon?

i didnt mean anything,
but, to be frank,
things wouldnt get any better to let it be.

CNY holiday has ended just in a click of time.
i wonder when will time stop moving forward?
suddenly i don't feel like growing up..

never thought of college life would be that tiring.
sigh.. my february is filled with tests and quizzes.
tomorrow will be bio and LAN.
though i'd finished doing revisions,
but still have to go on with my next subject.
chemistry for next week..... haiz.. boring..

i don't know why Miss Ng (my ESL lecturer) is so fussy.
i've been doing the same proposal thingy for weeks!
keep editing this and that, even had i changed the whole topic.
yet STILL. did not satisfy her wants!
i had passed up sheets of proposals, but all coming back with no approval.
sieeennn...

there was a practical test for chemistry today.
first time of doing experiment in college.
although it was just a simple experiment.
but it was quite fun wearing the lab coat and goggles.
all of us were like a bunch of excited scientists or whatever. LOL.

another thing,
i highlighted my hair before CNY..
and i'll describe it all in one word - REGRET!
not explaining much here,
but im sure you won't see me in this for long.

anyway,
another one week for CNY!
another one week to collect more angpau's!

=)

today is a bad day.

there are a lot of problems between us these days.
the usual people that i can find no longer can i find.

since 2009 started,
my daily happenings
my happiness and unhappiness when I'm stucked in problems
feel like people around me are getting further and further..

the way i feel during all these days..
i realise i've became even more quiet and speechless.
i feel very uncomfortable being 'there'.

my tears drop.
for all the reasons i've been patient for so long.
and all for you, because i love you that much.

who else can i turn to when im in this condition?

hello people.
just realized, i haven't updated my blog for more than a month.
this unlike the usual me huh.

anyway, happy belated new year!! =P
finally, 2008 ends, and a brand new year arrives..
new resolutions, any?
i have lots of them, but kinda lazy to list out here.

for all these years..
of being a primary school student to a high school student,
and now, i finally turn into a fresh college girl!

currently taking SAM in Taylors.
have started classes for a week actually.
but still trying to get more familiar in the college.
recognize all the places and stuffs.
there were few times i'd lost my way =.=
even got lost after going to the washroom,
couldn't find the way back to my classroom. Lol.

anyway, i've met new friends here.
even met a few old friends, my primary school friends.
been years never i had seen them.

hrm.. still not really use to college life yet,
but i guess i'll slowly adapt to the new environment very soon.

gotta get rid of the laziness and be a hardworking girl already.
im trying to clear up my assignments right on that day as possible and never procrastinate no more.
forcing myself to revise the notes every day.
there will be many tests and courseworks coming up.

this is just the beginning of all.
anyhow, hope i can cope with it.

all the best people.
smiles.

heh.. today baby did a lot to tam fan me.
not to say a lot, but still got la.. haha.
cause i was quite angry since yesterday night.

he came with a bunch of surprise flowers.
although..... the flowers....... *secret* ^^ haha
everything was fine throughout.

after lunch we went spazio again.
had straighten my hair..
and u know what?
my hair is NOT LONG ANYMORE!

it's short now.
but actually i wanted it to be shorter more.
might be nicer. but nvm lah.
hrm.. dont know why, but i see not much difference.

anyway.. baby sat beside me for 4 hours plus..
Lol.. waited until he fell asleep. hee
then we went dinner. and home.

everyday, i love you even more baby.

tomorrow he will be off to singapore~
will be missing him like crazy =(

我很喜欢看烟花
它给我一种很特别的感觉

每一次看烟花
每次不自觉的兴奋与激动

总觉得
可以和心爱的人看到烟花
是一件很浪漫的事

烟花
可以代表着开心
也可能是不开心

烟花
可以是开始
也可以是结束

但我希望 我的烟花
永远不会结束

yesterday was the prom night.
actually nothing really special happened there.
i guess the most enjoyable part was the moment when we could dress up ourselves like a princess.

after the event,
we went to the other place.
not going to mention the place,
but it was my first time ever been there, as well as my buds.

there were many thoughts in my mind when i was in there.
actually i didn't really enjoy much.
little harsh feelings, and certain additional reasons.

anyway, i wana specially thanks my baby for accompanying me through out the day.

we went to pyramid.
i wanted to buy some accessories for prom night.
keep forcing him to give me ideas and blabla so on.
although i knew he doesn't like to. *hehs*
then we had lunch with his friends.
after lunch, we went 'da gei'.
then we played the 'basketball machine'
actually i enjoyed lots.

soon, time for saloon!
we went to spazio.
baby accompanied me there, waiting me
to wash hair, set hair, make up.

at night, he waited me at the hotel lobby so long.
just to meet me for a short while.
and to see me in the dress? lol.
after prom he came again and brought me to the place i mentioned earlier.

when he knew i was unhappy.
we were out of the place, and had a walk.
and when problems occured later on,
he actually helped me a lot.

i might be lost if he was not there beside me.

baby thanks for everyhing.
i knew u were unhappy during the time too, cause of me.
im sorry, for wanting you to tolerate me everytime.

I love you, baby. Always.

MY GOODNESS.

my worst year ever.

first, i lost my old phone.

second, i lost my money.

NOW, i lost my second new phone.

dumb me. sigh! sooo sad lar! =(

called my baby once i reached home..

sobbing non stop. =(

now i know the reason,

why they always tell me..

YOU ARE CARELESS!

hello. it's been quite some time since the last blog ya.
nowadays hardly blog. getting lazy. =D
somehow there's something i feel like writing today.

it was the very first time,
my boyfriend met my father.

it was a sudden incident.
lazy to describe everything here.
but, we had dinner together.
us, with my parents. LoL.

it actually didn't really mean any big deal.
but, lol. dont know how to say.
it's just.. kind of a big deal for us. =.="

fortunately, everything went well.

anyhow,
just only, TH intro a job for me. through his friend.
since couldn't find any better job so far.
so.. whatever la.. just do first loh..
no harm after all.. time flexible also.

ah haa! one more thing.
these few days, i find knitting is fun! =D

and ya. gonna take undang test soon.
so cant wait to drive the car!
*VROOM VROOM....* =P

today went saloon with baby.
woops! baby's hair is short now =)
since still early after tat, we decided to hang out in pyramid.

it should be a happy day.
since so long never met bee already,
and our outings are like once in a blue moon nowadays.

unfortunately, some sadding stuff happened in between.
sigh, feel so guilty man..
that's not a small amount of money know..

guess i wont feel any good to use parents' money for now.
as well as myself, might cut out some of my plans, which need to use $$
sigh. so wana work now. and earn back the money.
will listen to mum, try to find job in teaching piano.

anyway it has happened.
no way to blame any.
regret not to be careful, always

fortunately, there's still my hunny to cheer me up.
love him lots. =)

yesterday was yee's 17th birthday!
kei brought us to puchong for shabu-shabu!
it was my first time eating this.. quite special to me actually.
it was quite different from other shabu-shabu restaurants i'd seen.
anyway it's actually a bit alike with 'lok lok'. but an upgraded one. haha.
the foods were better than what i thought. =)

then we had a surprise cake for yee! (although it later on didnt really turn out to be a surprise..)
we all raised our voice to sing the birthday song to yee.
shockingly, the other people around followed us to sing too. =D
er then as usual, photo session! and ss-ing. LOL

we stayed there, chatting and joking around with full of laughters.
till around 11.30pm only we off to go.

frankly speaking, it was my happiest day since the day spm stress started to burden me.
i really enjoyed myself. especially when the first time my boy can fool around with them so happily. LOL!
weird case. hahs. anyway hope yee felt happy and enjoyed too! =D

loving my baby so so muchh =P

16.11.2008

just to say a little about this day.
it was my dear brother's 20th birthday.
we had our very first. biggest party at home.

there were around 30 people squeezing in a small house! *chunted*
i guess, this was the first time ever hapenning at home.
it was fun, although it was not happened for me.
they were my brother's friends and buddies.
i knew some though, and one or two of my friends were there.
the so called friends happened to be my brother's friends' brother and sister. LoL.
anyways, they were all friendly and nice.
the house was filled with sounds and laughters.

this special event was specially made up by my mom.
to celebrate my beloved brother's last birthday with us, in malaysia.
and soon, he will be flying over to melbourne, early february of 2009.

here are some pics to share =)