Yan · 的空盒子

When she starts asking
Are you sick?

No.

When she starts asking
Did you cry?

No.

When she starts asking
What are those?

...

When he starts asking
Why are them up there?

...

When he starts asking
Did u use them?

Yea.

When he starts asking
What time was that?

...

When they go

Who's that?
Boy or girl?
What's wrong?

...


Everything stops, when they start scolding.

Everything stops, when I'm not saying anything.

人 往往就是这么矛盾
记得说 时间还停留在以前
单纯的 还是保持单纯
但是 谁知道 之中隔着变化
有心机的 看得透明极了

忽然发觉 错了
这种感觉 错了
是因为习惯了现在
还是以前起了变化

天真的想法 已不在
每一个人 每一件事
其实都在渐渐改变

原来 现在也不错
原来 现在也很好

才发现 这么久以来
只有她 是唯一不变的

心酸溜溜的我

不忿 

不甘

更不会让步

原本期待的休假

没发觉..

它原来不是我想象中一样灿烂

原本很想做的事情
原以为能做的事情

设了一大堆计划..

感觉...

落空了..

最悲哀的是
我好像 找不着朋友...

可是 却让我明白了
真正的友谊...

 

my holidays.

我不懂..
在一起 是对的吗？
又是我的错了

我让你失望了吗？
不是第一次听你这么说了

我不是一百分女友
也许连一半都没有

我开始看不见未来了
也许一开始就是个错

能不能让泪流干后
这一切都消失呢

对不起

让你后悔爱上我了...

人海茫茫中

与你相遇
是我有史以来的幸福

在生命里的交叉点
我一再与你重逢

虽然之间跌跌撞撞
不断的互相伤害

你对我的坚决
我对你的思念

从此认定了生命中的另一半

我不知道 我们能不能携手到老
我不能却定 我们能否走到最后

可是 我想说
就算有那么一天 缘分不再把我们牵着

你 还是我生命中曾经拥有的幸福
你给我的回忆 永远都是那么珍贵

逐渐适应了学院生活……
认识久了 其实我班同学 大家人都很好 很亲切 很容易相处
其中一个突破就是…… 以前跟同班同学都只是黏着一两个好朋友 其他同学跟不认识没两样……
但现在的同学 大家似乎都能平起平坐……

有好有坏啦……
好的是…… 不管谁大家都能混一混
坏的是…… 没有一两位最好的知己 真的可以彼此聊心

所以…… 我还是很怀念我中学时的好姐妹~~
才知道 要找到一份真心的友谊 有多难……
一份真心的友谊 又是要多久的时间经营……

虽然最近我们在一起的时间 越来越少……
聊天的时间 也越来越少……
有人说…… 我们的友谊再过几时 就会暗地消失……
回想着当时…… 我们一起说好的约定……
不管上了大学 不管各自远走
我们的友情永远都保持着这份热情……

虽然大家都还记得这份约定……
但…… 其实大家心中该早已有了种莫名的预感……
这莫名的预感…… 在暗地里 慢慢的滋长……
预告着 我们的友谊将面临危机……

至少……
我们还是有尽力维护这份友谊的念头……
所以……
我相信 最真心的朋友 不管多久没谈心 最真挚的友情 无论多久没碰面……
一旦再见面……
还是能不由自主地敞开心怀 诉说着当年……

we never had a nice talk these few nights.
arguments never stopped between us.
perhaps, like what u said,
i was the reason for all these to happen?

thought of we could talk better tonight.
cause we never had chatted for few days,
i had tons of things wanted to tell so much.
cause i was so exhauted for my revisions,
i just wanted to spend a little of your time,
a little of sweet talks, to boost a little of my energy.

ending up. you were busy enjoying with your Lovely friends.

till late night. listen, it's LATE night AGAIN.

thing that i hardly could accept.

wetting playing enjoying whole day long.
ALWAYS.

cant he spend more of his time doing more useful things?
not it is holidays or what, i thought tests are coming soon?

i didnt mean anything,
but, to be frank,
things wouldnt get any better to let it be.

today is a bad day.

there are a lot of problems between us these days.
the usual people that i can find no longer can i find.

since 2009 started,
my daily happenings
my happiness and unhappiness when I'm stucked in problems
feel like people around me are getting further and further..

the way i feel during all these days..
i realise i've became even more quiet and speechless.
i feel very uncomfortable being 'there'.

my tears drop.
for all the reasons i've been patient for so long.
and all for you, because i love you that much.

who else can i turn to when im in this condition?

 

我很喜欢看烟花
它给我一种很特别的感觉

每一次看烟花
每次不自觉的兴奋与激动

总觉得
可以和心爱的人看到烟花
是一件很浪漫的事

烟花
可以代表着开心
也可能是不开心

烟花
可以是开始
也可以是结束

但我希望 我的烟花
永远不会结束

been days i haven't blog. finally, SPM is in progress!
and there, 8 more papers down! :O *counting counting*

soo super tiring to sit for exams whole day long till late afternoon.  Zz  =(

the next paper will be on tuesday --the worst day ever!
will be doing papers from morning till 5.30pm ..man.

Subjects - Addmaths paper 1 & 2 / Pendidikan Moral
*clap clap* zomg! pening like hell! @.@

Last night,
had a little arguement with bebe.
although it might be my wrong, but he's always the one willing to tolerate.
move a step back. be patient with my mischievousness. spoling me like a lil princess.

he's the best thing i ever had, baby! *lovess ^^

hrm...
i feel like one kind, and i wonder why.
but it lasts just for that short moment.
*shocked & unbelievable*~

suddenly think of DCEG, LOL.
don't know how's he doing right now.
might talk to him someday.


 

My baby boy spoils me like a baby princess.

YET,

im loving it! =P

and i'll appreciate every moment and second to be with you.

My dearest.  *winks*

 

 

 

 

 

 

i feel bad.
i am sorry.
i am so sorry.

but i admit.
although it's just a short period.
although it might not mean anything.
but there was still happiness i felt.
i will never forget the day.

truly, truly, apologize.

出乎意料之外~
我…… 终于接受他了~
一切发生的很突然
也很顺其自然…… =.=
在想也许过去是我太固执
也是该尝试改变的时候了
也许结果其实并没有我想象中差

我们的关系拖拖拉拉了这么久……

希望这一次，我的决定是对的

 

 

   

 

而我……


要努力……

 

努力……

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当　李伟杰　的 专属女友！！~

=PP

after about two weeks,
it was quite shocked when wk called me yesterday night.

i thought ever since the last message, he will never bother about me anymore.
and we will never like before.

yet everything was back as normal. we talked as usual. im relieved.
we can still remain as good friends.
honestly, im glad to have a friend like him. =)

i admit i cant bear to lose him, as a good friend.
i really appreciate everything he has done for me.
not to deny, he stands one of the most important place in my heart other than my besties.

we chatted for whole day night till early in the morning, as usual -.-''
told him everything that happened in these two weeks.
phew~ much comfortable.

he understands me the most.
there are nothing that we couldn't speak.
it's comfortable to talk to him.
unlike the others, it is quite pressured at times.
im used to the way of talking to him.
and it's the time when i do not need to mask any of myself.

to be the pure naked me.

 

  

simply some old memories of us in these two and half years.

thanks to be there for me always,

guiding me through ups and downs.

although i'd always let you down,

but you'll neither leave me alone,

nor dump me aside.

you spare me shade,

no matter whatever condition it is.

you pull me out from the edge,

whenever i'm drilling down.

you hold me up from the back,

whenever im falling down.

He knows everything of me.

He is my life diary .

=D

最近在想
我是太笨太蠢还是太单纯
之前明明替自己铺好路
结果还是杀出一个绊脚石
不过还好及时刹车

真的该退出这种游戏了
答应自己 不再冲动
已经叫她从今以后要把我看好了 =.=

原来我还是需要别人照顾 -.-''

幸亏还有她~
不然我死定了! ~ @@

只剩一个礼拜时间而已

收拾心情 好好努力奋斗吧

put everything aside, just for SPM.

gambate.

although i act like nothing,
but i know things had changed.
dont know why,
but i feel like wearing a mask when i face you.
not to say exactly a mask,
but i dont feel comfortable, that's all.

things aren't like what we used to be.
hrm, this time, im sure that im the "innocent" one. LOL *just thought of what he used to tell me*
but then it's useless to say anything by now also
whatever, im totally fed up with all these.

anyway, left not much time also.
dont feel like bothering too.
it's just that,
i dont like the way you are.

simple as that. =)

ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzZZ

im just too dumb !

goodness.

what am i doing?

wake up pls.

what have you promised yourself?

okay stop it now.

dont know why, i feel things are more like a fake dream.
when she asks me that question, and her comments.
hrm, suddenly a thought flows into my mind.
"yea, am i so..?" for a few seconds.
the thought answers me a 'no'.
then the second thought goes.
"omg, what am i doing then?"
=.=" i feel like i'd lost my way
angels~ pls guide me~! lols

okay now, what do i feel?
i feel like.. things are not in my hands.
i couldn't reach them, no matter how hard i stretch.
i cant feel any.
but i know, i want to grab them badly.
i wish i could hold them tightly.
so that i can feel every single thing.
i would know every little thing.

but they seem far from me.
they'd never came near me.
somehow it makes me wants to get them even more.

sometimes i wonder.
sometimes im worried.
sometimes i fear.

is this true?
im not used to it.
i feel pressured.
always when i have to squeeze things out.
i never had need to do this.
i'd tried my best, but still i knew it's not enough.
but im not the one who can easily speak.
everyone knows.

and that is also the reason why,
"more cheerful and talkative"
are in my list.

i sense something.
there's no sparks.
yet i dont feel like it.
im afraid.
so im trying even harder.

gosh, this isn't me, really.

still remember when i was figuring how long will we last in such relation.
yeah not to deny it's been a long period of time.
finally, it doesn't continue to be like this anymore.

we are not like those days anymore.
maybe just a few days contact once.
anyway, i still put him as one of my good friend.
as he still knows some things that people don't know.

we may hang out after spm
that was what he told me
and yeah, i realise he's just a normal good friend for me =)

chatted with him last night, on msn.
told him bout some stuff
and asked him bout how things going on.
he said might be a no.
by the time i was thinking,
hrm? this is the very first time he answers like this.
i don't know, maybe im just thinking too much.

anyway, im still relieved.
cause i had no harsh feelings when he told me the thing.
and never like before, i'd used to put him out of my phone.